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The 15th & 16th; He's never seen scans of a back like mine.

The 15th & 16th; He's never seen scans of a back like mine.

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The 15th of September.  A decidedly less great day. I woke up so excited and full of beans because today was the day I was finally going to get some answers about my back, but now I just feel tired and deflated. 

This morning I wrote about yesterday, then was at the chiro again. My neck needed some serious attention, and I promised I'd let Trine know how my appointment with Mr. Harland this afternoon went. 

We went home for about forty five minutes, then back out to The Spire to finally see the surgeon and get some answers. I had a little bit of time to read my book before he called me in, but I was very ready when he did. We talked a little bit about my background, then he showed us my scan pictures (I wish I'd taken photos now) and talked us through them. It is the discs that are causing my pain - the ones at the top are okay, but as you go down my spine, they get thinner and thinner, down to about a fifth of the size they should be, and are now just a couple of millimetres thick. At the very bottom, it looks like two of the vertebrae are on their way to fusing together, and what's left of the discs is prolapsing. He's never seen scans of a back like mine belonging to a 25 year old. Maybe a 50 year old. Of course. And it turns out, there's no surgery he can do to fix it. I'm being referred to the pain team and their physio, who will hopefully have a solution for the agony. Maybe pills, maybe patches, maybe steroid injections into my spine, we'll see. I'm disappointed because I was really hoping for something more immediate. It might get better when the bones fuse, I'll definitely get stiffer, and that's it. No real cause - not steroids, just a case of bad genes and bad luck. I'm an unfixable disaster. 

The 16th of September. 

This is not going to be an exciting entry. I had a really bad night; awake on and off since 3am. Maybe it was the incredibly noisy weather, I don't know. It was not good. 

I emerged from my bedroom at half past eight, and spent my morning getting my phone ready to back up so such my new one was delivered I could get started setting it up. It did not go to plan. 

Everything ran rather slowly. I only started trying to back up the current phone after lunch, and I have been sat at the computer all afternoon. The first backup, during which I watched Bad Neighbours (I give it 3 stars), failed for some reason, then the second go took the entirety of 22 Jump Street (3.5 stars) and I thought that had failed too. However, when I went to try a third time, it appeared that a backup had been made and I could finally start on the new one!

My time has not been totally wasted - I have finished the snood I've been working on. It's very long and so will keep my face warm and snuggly. 

Anyway. Back to work. I suspect I will be here all evening. 

The 17th & 18th; My fingers feeling like icicles.

The 17th & 18th; My fingers feeling like icicles.

The 13th & 14th; I have had just the most perfect day.

The 13th & 14th; I have had just the most perfect day.