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Documenting not dying since October 2013.

The 10th & 11th; I have finished!

The 10th & 11th; I have finished!

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The 10th of June. Today has sucked.

I didn't think I had a particularly bad night, but I must have, because I have been struggling to keep my eyes open all afternoon. However, my body didn't seem to deem it bad enough to be able to have a nap, so a second coffee at 4pm was my only way to stay awake.

It started off badly because I found out that another one of my friends has died. A guy called Ash from my TCT group, one of the few people in there that I actually liked, relapsed a few months ago. He'd been really positive about his prognosis but evidently that wasn't enough. And I can't stop thinking about death.

That put a dark cloud over the whole day, and I wanted to kind of retreat from the world, so I crocheted. Just going back and forth doing the collar of the cardigan, and it takes twenty minutes to do a row. Given that there are 24 rows of the collar, it's kept me busy all day, with the tennis burbling in the background. I've got eight rows left, so that's nearly three hours of work remaining.

Dolly is still sad, and now she's getting angsty with me when I stroke her. I've never had to deal with this before.

The 11th of June.

I was fully aware of having a terrible night because it was so warm, but today I have not been exhausted, which of course makes perfect sense.

Woke up to find a note under my door saying Mommy was over the road, but to text her when I got up so she'd know when to come back for us to go into town. She had left my breakfast prepared because she is an angel, so I didn't have to do too much standing and cause myself pain. She returned as I was finishing my coffee, and we went shopping for Daddy's birthday presents and other errands. I got him some fudge and a nanoblocks astronaut, then I needed some more body butter and hand cream. I had already got him a card, at least.

Home, and after lunch, it was time to power through the last few rows of the collar. I have just been doing that solidly all afternoon while catching up on Humans, and I am pleased to say I have finished! I have weaved in all the ends, so now I have to attach the sleeves. I really hope they're long enough.

The 12th & 13th; I'm going to have liposuction.

The 12th & 13th; I'm going to have liposuction.

The 8th & 9th; The terror.

The 8th & 9th; The terror.