The 16th of April. Tonight I am a schweepy bear but it because I have actually been outside and done things. This morning I got Mommy to wash my hair, then I met up with Vicky at Yorks for lunch.

She is one of my few proper cancer friends and she sort of disappeared when it emerged that I cannot be fixed. I understand why she did - fear. It's okay because she came back and I love her. I do not hold nonsensical grudges. I get why some people have pulled away - it's easier not to be close to me when I do die, so you're not so sad when it happens. Anyway, we had a lovely time, eating foods (me eggs florentine, her lamb flatbread) and drinking coffee. We nabbed the sunny window table, then got too warm and had to move. It was nice for a while though.

When I got home, Becky came round to borrow some books to take on holiday, and now I am weary.

The 17th of April.

I think today might have been the last day of my period, thank God. Stupid life-ruining enforced menstruation.

From lunchtime onwards, I was quite a busy bee. I'd spent my morning replying to some emails and hunting through a multitude of old photos, finding one I haven't seen in a long time of me on the phone to Christine after I'd had one of the tumours in my face biopsied.

This afternoon, I thought I should work out as I hadn't for the past two days, so I did all that until about half four, when Mommy and I watched an episode of Criminal Minds. When that finished, I got changed and made myself presentable, then went over the road to go out with Becky, James, Jamie and Natalia for Jamie's 21st birthday meal at Miller & Carter. They still hadn't got any mango puree which Becky and I were rather irked by. So she had the Grey Goose Le Fizz and I had a Cosmopolitan which I was pleasantly surprised by! James was starving so we went to our table and he ordered ribs while the rest of us had steak. I had the 14oz T-bone and it was super tasty. I didn't touch my lettuce wedge.

None of us could fit in pudding, so we left after just main courses and went back to the Easts' for birthday cake! It was a really good cake; I was impressed with Natalia's baking skills.

Now I am really full and sleepy.