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Documenting not dying since October 2013.

The 27th & 28th; It's never quite over.

The 27th & 28th; It's never quite over.

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The 27th of January.  I have a headache. Don't know where that's come from - I'm not dehydrated, my blood pressure isn't high, so I'm just ignoring it. 

Today has been rather productive. This morning was a blog post and holding myself back from ringing up This Morning. They were having a discussion about people wanting to take their dogs into shops and restaurants, and nobody was making the point that those places are hard enough to get around in a wheelchair, I can only imagine the hell they would become when filed with dogs too. I mean, I love them, but I love them outside and in people's homes. 

This afternoon: crochet and Netflix. All the giraffe legs are done now, just tail, ears and "ossicones" (horns) left, then assembly! Soon Elle, Luna, Ellie, Esmé and I will have our baby day (thankfully, having one's own baby is not mandatory).

I got a great book from the Easts for my birthday called My Crochet Doll and it's full of patterns for doll, then loads of outfits and accessories, even pants and socks! That is definitely going to be my next project. 

The 28th of January.

I think the headache I had last night might have been from a lot of squinting I've been doing. I shall elaborate later. 

I finished almost all of the pieces of the giraffe last night, I just had one ossicone left to do this morning, then I finished stuffing the feet and I put her together. Looking at her from across the room now, I might add another patch - there's a gap that is a little large for my liking. 

After lunch, we went into town for my eye test, and to buy thank you cards. I had a lot of discussion with the optician lady about what's been going on stuff with my eyes, with the dryness, the Lacrilube/Vitapos problem, the sudden apparent decline in my vision. She checked the health of my eyes and the old scar from the GvHD, and that all looks fine, there's no infection, but they did seem to be really quite dry. Then, when checking my actual vision, it became clear that I've got real problems focusing (hence the aforementioned squinting) because the fluid levels on the front of the eye are fluctuating, which is causing issues with my ability to see shapes clearly sometimes. She's going to write to my GP recommending some eye drops for them to prescribe, and Miss Rauz at the Eye Hospital to ask her to see me. I've got to try to stabilise the moisture levels, then get my eyes tested again in a few months. Oh, the issues that cancer has left me with. It's never quite over. 

The 29th & 30th; I feel ever so highbrow.

The 29th & 30th; I feel ever so highbrow.

The 25th & 26th; Everything is still such an effort.

The 25th & 26th; Everything is still such an effort.