The 25th & 26th; I don't want it to start because then it'll be over!

The 25th of October.  Another very strange dream last night in which I was trying to decide whether or not to shoot myself in the head. It wasn't going to kill me, just "reset" me in some way, but I had to get it right or it wouldn't work and I'd just end up brain damaged. Why am I like this?

This morning, I finished off all the parts of the thing I've been making and put it all together. It looks so good! I just have to wait until Christmas to show it to anybody. Oh, the pains of being organised. I still have to come up with and make two more presents though so I do need the time. 

After lunch I started on a hat using the Christmassy wool I bought which I will be able to let people see, although admittedly I won't be able to wear it until at least November. Frankly I'm just waiting for an excuse to make my Christmas playlist. The festive food magazines have already started arriving but I have yet to peruse them for recipes. 

At 3, Shari came round again to see Alfie and Angelica. They were not particularly into the idea of sitting on her lap, but that's normal - they'll get there. Both of them sit still with me very happily, so it's just going to take time. She stayed for about an hour, and we had a good chat. She's very excited, having been wanting kittens since she was a kid, and now she's living in her own place, she can have them! I bet she can't wait for the weekend to come. 

The 26th of October. 

Today has not gone as planned but maybe that's in my favour. 

This morning, I mostly sat in front of the tv, working on my Christmas hat. That is actually how I spent my afternoon too, although it wasn't supposed to be. The lady who's adopting Ava and Amira was supposed to be coming to see them with her daughter and grandchildren, but she never turned up.  I realised that she didn't know what number I live at, and I rang her but she didn't answer, so I left a message. They have my phone number, so I thought her daughter might ring but that didn't happen, and I've still heard nothing. She goes on holiday tomorrow, so I might see if Sheila has the daughter's number and try to find out what happened. 

Them not coming meant that I could finish off the hat (it's very cute) and we made a special cake for the final episode of Bake Off. I don't want it to start because then it'll be over! But we will be having cinnamon chocolate chip cake which will be amazing. I did hurt my hand chopping all the chocolate but I think it will be worth it.