The 14th & 15th; What is essential is invisible to the eye.

The 14th of October.  Well, at least now both sides of my ribcage hurt so I'm less concerned that I'll get another pneumothorax. 

Last night was bad. Back to bad. Just coughed all night long. Today has been all about the phlegm again - surprisingly, the same as yesterday. 

This morning, I got a blog post written up, in between coughs and changing position to try to be comfortable. Thought about washing my hair because it's been three weeks since I last did but I just don't have the energy. 

After lunch, I went upstairs to lie down and try to rest my sore bones while I watched the finale of season 2 of How to Get Away with Murder. When I came back downstairs, I finished off the base of the clothes I was making for the doll, then tried to put them on. Turns out, they wouldn't fit over the head. Adjustments will have to be made. Potentially decapitation. 

The 15th of October. 

Honestly I don't know if last night was bad or good. I think I slept but there were many small coughs. Today it isn't rumbly, just still very phlegmy. Occasionally I inhale and hear it all move which is rather disconcerting. 

I spent most of my morning unsuccessfully trying to crochet stuff, and gave up at lunchtime when Mommy came back from M&S with a pretzel. 

This afternoon, we fast forwarded through the Six Chair Challenge on X Factor (it makes it so much easier to watch). Then I decided it was finally time to watch The Little Prince film on Netflix. I kept putting it off because "it wasn't the right time" or I didn't feel like crying. But I didn't want it to disappear without having seen it, so I braced myself. 

It is so lovely. So beautiful. I knew it would be but it still took my breath away. I wish I'd been able to see it on a big screen - I bet it looks incredible. And of course I wept like a child in the past where The Little Prince is bitten by the snake. And although the ending was obviously different to the book, it is entirely appropriate. If you can, you must watch it. 

"It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."